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Last week I saw an odd thing on Indeed where I was apparently "already qualified for an interview" for a job posting at a local hospital that I've been trying to get in to for years for IT. I didn't have to apply but just set up an interview time. Well turns out it's actually a "hiring event" which I was informed after a recruiter called and was like "Are you sure you wanted to apply for this? You aren't even A+ certified anymore." You know because you forget how computers work if you let your cert expire even though you've been working with computers for the last 20+ goddamn years and at an IT level for the last 6 but sure.

She asked me if I was willing to re-cert and I said yes but whatever. My Google IT cert which is the same thing isn't worth shit I guess so that's a scam. Thanks Googs...

In any case, if you had half a day to crash study for a stupid fucking IT interview that was the equivalent of a 10 min speed date, what would you brush up on?

I ask because like you literally just google what you don't know. Everyone in the industry knows this, but you can't fucking say that at an interview. Just like when they say "can you tell me about you employment gaps?" you can't say "well you see I was fired from jobs because I am autistic." I already and prepped to lie and say I've been doing freelance IT and web dev in my spare time and that also covers those gaps.

Edit: done with interview. They closed the position on Monday because a guy that quit asked for his job back. I'm going to go kill myself now.

I'm on a mailing list for Claudia and got this today. Kind of funny since last week the Democrats tried kicking de la Cruz off of the Georgia ballot.

No seriously, I have an interview in about 3 hours. I lied on the screener and said I LOVE working with and helping people. It's a partial lie I guess because I like helping people but not in the "corpo" way since that isn't really helping people and it's all fake as fuck...

I am already daydreaming about having the job, where I have to mask hardcore and pretend I love talking to large groups of people but only after I hit a rockstar rail of coke off the toilet seat in the restroom beforehand. I've never done cocaine before... which nostril should I go with?

I sort of maybe would be ok if I got the job but like I really wanna get this freelance web dev thing off the ground instead.

I guess it wouldn't be horrible since it's a remote gig all done via Zoom meetings but like Idk... Every time I get going on programming a fucking job comes my way and screws it all up.

Sidenote but if anyone knows someone that wants a small business-esque static website that almost doesn't suck, hit me up. I need money to pay for things like food and weed.

Idk why I made this post really. How's everyone's week going?

E: so I got a "job offer" but did some googling and it's basically a cut-through insurance job sales position, I'd be working evenings so won't see my family. Probably won't take it. Sick of this tbh.

*Forgive any formatting as I'm on mobile.

As I read in themes, I'm currently focusing on philosophy to try and understand it, see where I fit in the world and also reconstruct my own atheist/nihilistic worldview.

I just got done with Existentialist Cafe and got a really nice overview of all the main players in the Existentialist camp but want to finally take the leap into nihilism and absurdism proper. I've read The Stranger and Myth of Sisyphus and like Camus a lot so far but also wanna tackle Satre, Beauvoir, and Merleau-Ponty eventually but wonder if I need to read Husserl and specifically Heidegger and Nietzche since they are controversial because of their politics. Would I be able to get away with just reading synopses of their work? I do currently have Being and Time in my list of books to get.

Also, aside from Nietzche, who else should I read regarding nihilism? I'm currently working through The Trouble with Being Born by Cioran and wanna find some more by him but also have The Antidote by Burkeman and Conspiracy Against the Human Race by Ligotti in my backlog. I did read The Book by Alan Watts the other day and though it felt like reading my stoned friend's wild ramblings on society and how we exist in it, some coherent stuff did come through. But I don't know if it was what I was after. I did appreciate it for introducing me to some concepts like ego and self but maybe I should have saved it for another day?

Sidenote but I'm planning on moving back and force between philosophy and socialist theory so socialist philosphers are also welcome. Generally I'm open to all suggestions.

Thanks in advance!

Basically title. I'm easing into my 1 year anniverary and wanting to come up with something that I can make and take to the in-laws since I don't want to put them out too much for my sake. They all eat omni and I don't expect them to cater to me. Last year I did tofurkey sausages and they were ok and they might be a fallback if I don't come up with something else. I was gonna get a Field Roast roast but it's $19 at Nat Grocers and yeah, I'm not spending that kind of money on something that only I am gonna eat.

I'd like it to be close to traditional but am open for alternative suggestions since, well, I love food. Right now I am thinking about doing vegan mashed potatoes since that is easy mode and I can scale it down to 1 or 2 helpings.

But other than that idk. Welcome to all ideas, so what you got?

Disclaimer: literally zero allergies or food aversions so I am open to anything. TIA.

Will check back after church crap...

I just realized that ebook collectiong has become something of a hobby for me. I think I like that lol. I am currently sifting through saved browser tabs of book recommendations that I have amassed over the last month in an attempt to clean up my browser sessions.

I've even developed a system of sending all tabs to my computer from my phone to create a list to check with libgen, then add to Calibre and sideload to my ereader from there. I hadn't really thought of it as a hobby since reading is a hobby but I think this might be close to data hording?

I also have 90 GB of roms that I have collected that cover all eras up to N64. Do I play any of them? No, but I got them. I did start playing Mario RPG and Earthbound during Indigenous Genocide Day.

So what are your weird but interesting hobbies that have snuck into your lives?

I'm in the market for something different but, to no surprise of anyone, am getting overwhelmed by how blatantly consumerist fidget toys have become.

About a year ago, I picked up a cheap magnetic clicky slider fidget and though I wasn't a big fan of the actual toy, I did fall I love with concept. I ended up getting a few more from Etsy that are 3D printed and one is micarta, but those are amazing. Big tactile clicks, loud as fuck, and just a good thing to carry for anxiety and social stuff. My main one can be quiet if need be so that helps.

But...

I'm in the process of purchase therapy because depression, and instead of buying another game I won't ever play, I thought I'd treat myself to something that helps with keeping my hands busy.

So I am mostly looking for opinions and feedback on stuff that is out there. I have a spinner, several fidget cubes, putty, and some of the other normal ones. Right now I am looking at possibly a haptic coin, one of those 3D printed gyro things, the Lautie knockoff ratchet ring(though it's even outside my price range even for it being a clone) and I keep coming back to FidgetsByAmelie on Etsy but it's partially due to the cute colors they use and using bio plastics.

So yeah, I guess that's it. TIA!

Things I think I like:

• rubber clicky buttons on fidget cube.
• clicky scroll ball
• clicky spinning wheel
• switch
• magnetic click/loud feedback
• knife flipping to some degree
• hair/beard rubbing(but that is built in)
• metal "shink" noise from that OWL knockoff slider
• probably any of the infinity style fidgets? Like cube or gear stuff

No for real, I'm bored. Ask me stuff lol.

I'm trying to not lose my mind debugging this stupid Android app. I'm jobless and don't know what I'm doing with my life.

Recently got diagnosed with ASD at 40. I'm severely depressed and suicidal. I listen to shitty music, read theory and pretend I understand it, oh and I'm super hungover because I suffer from alcoholism. I'm an open book so please don't doxx me <3.