Mantikora

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I don't know how to comfort you, this is beyond scary. And thank you for replying, it means a lot to get in touch with people who think and feel like I do. It's a small comfort in all of this, but still is.

Do you have anyone you could talk to or know a local group that also cares about this like you do? They might be organizing protests or vigils.

I probably do, but knowing myself, I wouldn't be long in the group because I am kind of a loner. I chat a lot with people from other countries who are donating religiously like me, but we're all in sort of despair.

I mean, this really needs to stop. We are all affected by this. Fascism is raging and this needs to stop.

If I wasn't on lexapro, I would probably be in a hospital. This way I am able to function. People usually say they can't cry on lexapro. Well, go and watch online genocide and I guarantee you will cry your heart out. I've cried so much.

I really can't stand the fact that those people don't eat, don't sleep and have to see butchered loved ones every single day. The horrors they're facing every single day. Why is that allowed? Why our voices don't mean anything? Why their suffering doesn't matter shit to stupid governments? How is this possible?!

I do think that we all deserve a distraction sometimes and taking a break from reading the news sometimes can actually help us gain strength to fight harder (depends on the person I suppose).

I manage to distract myself, but it doesn't last. The thing is, I've connected to those two young people from Gaza and this became personal to me. It's not just "people are being genocided", it's "my friends are going through hell". I wonder how families abroad who have someone in Gaza feel if I am fucked up like this. But I've met Palestinians, they're incredibly patient and resilient and noble... They endure pain like it's natural to them and in a way it is, they're experiencing it for generations now. Jesus, it's all so fucked up...

Only my mother and my husband, but my husband is seeing me in this state is also afraid for me sometimes. People around me just don't care. My country sucks when empathy to non-white people concerns. Just yesterday my hairdresser said nonchalantly "oh, you still preoccupy with that". Yeah...

Those videos do look like a MK Ultra designed. Fake bullshit, created to make you stupid and convinced you have an enemy, while becoming someones.

Their bots on telegram are dm-ing fake videos of Hamas killing Palestinians, like, "they're animals, argh, see" and then you see the same person posting "Israel will fuck your mother and your children and I'm proud of it!". They're hitting on all the fronts.

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I'm trying my best to spread the word, please, share it wherever you can.

Probably because all the organizators are from first or second world countries. They provide their own bank accounts and then send the money accordingly to the agreement they have with the families.

Thank you for sharing. ❤️

Also, don't forget to sign and share https://secure.avaaz.org/campaign/en/palestine_recognition_4_1_sign/?whatsapp

Beautiful introduction to the discussion.

I would like to remind everyone of donating directly to the families in Gaza. Many, many of them have GoFundMe and similar campaigns where they ask us for help. They need money. Try to imagine being starved and trying to run for your life. Sick, injured and on top of that starved and to be under constant bombing running for your life or what's left of it. Money we send them is used for basic necessities us free people (as resistance calls us) don't even think about. So please, please, consider "adopting" a family and help them survive this hell.

There's a lot of discussion on how they even receive that money. They do, through merchants (war dogs) who have the cash, so they're also a money exchange, since they receive it from the sender (usually campaign organizer) on their bank account and pay out cash to the receivers, with very high provisions, 15-30%.

Aid by organisations, unfortunately, get stuck. I don't even want to go into the depths of corruption during the war, but every war is like that, brings out the worse in those who can use the situation to their benefit. Also, let's not forget that the criminal IOF is attacking aid trucks. A lot of Gazans told me most of the aid just doesn't come through. That's why direct donations are the best way to help.

I've just sent an eSIM to these kids https://youtube.com/@ahmed-and-mahmoud-days, so, where is a will, there's a way.

Hope you will join many of us and donate.

Here are few campaigns:

https://gogetfunding.com/aya-al-harazin/

https://www.gofundme.com/f/daily-needs-for-gaza

https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-us-rebuild-our-lives-after-we-lost-everything-in-gaza

https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-dr-yasmine-and-her-family-evacuate-from-gaza

https://gogetfunding.com/evacuate-my-family-from-gaza-and-help-sisters-and-brother-complete-education/

https://www.gofundme.com/f/dnhmg-help-my-brother-a-down-syndrome-patient

https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-yamen-undergo-surgery-in-gaza

https://www.gofundme.com/f/urgent-support-for-a-pregnant-mother-and-her-daughter

https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-reem-albeshs-family-escape-gaza

https://chuffed.org/project/112789-help-motasem-and-his-family-survive

https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-mahmoud-and-his-family-to-safety

https://chuffed.org/project/113625-support-afafs-survival-in-gaza-including-cancer-treatment

They've lost their minds long time ago. This is beyond insanity.

After Iranian warning fireworks, starting that very night, in less than *24 hours they killed 80 people of which, of course, a bunch of kids.

Then, they bombed an orphanage.

Then West Bank.

Just yesterday they've barraged whole fucking Gaza. I don't count the dead anymore.

It's been less than a week of IOF's bestial rampage slaughter of Gazans. Gazans refusing to leave their homes. It's a bloodshed there.

*Edited "two hours ". Lapsus.

it feels like people are trying to limit what woman are and are not allowed to be.

I'm also cis woman, half feminine, half tomboyish and the worst part, I act like a kid. People gave up telling me what is "real" woman or how she behaves or what she needs to do in order to be a true woman, but I get a lot of "grow up". I don't want to grow up and as I get older, I know I'm fitting my body less and less. Only when I feel feminine I'm comfortable with my age and the way I look. But a child in me wants to jump, show when she's happy, sad, dance, giggle... Imagine a forty year old woman talking to flowers on the road. That's me. You have no idea how people are restricting me. Calling me crazy, stupid. Even online. When I say I'm 40 I get a lot "you talk like an edgy teen" and I know it's an insult. I try not to get insulted. And with men, it's so strange. They all like every aspect of my character, but me being childish is inconvenient to them. Or when I refuse to be stereotypical woman, especially if they aren't capable of playing their own masculine role. And as much as I feel awesome in sexy outfit, I hate doing it for men's satisfaction because it's their vision of feminine.

It's all just odd.

Most of the time I'm attacked and questioned by traditional people. I don't know why are they so uncomfortable with nonconformism and when things don't fit their learned patterns. It's not like they're all alone on this planet and that they're the rule, although they are a norm.

I saw few women like you and honestly I don't know what the fuck is wrong with looking like you. Do we all have to look like virgins from males' imagination (fuck you, Petrarca and all those stupid poets and philosophers and prophets who made their definition of us by making us their objects of lust and desire 🫵)? And when people comment... Like why do you care?

Sorry, I'm stoned, I'm just typing my incoherent thoughts.