Cysioland

Gotta take care of my mental health. Block anyone who uses "tankie" unironically or talks shit about how communists are le bad. Can't even have a friendship with western anarchists.

Yeah, so my official arrow key keycaps broke, the service said that they don't have replacements and it's out of warranty anyway, so I'm on my own.

I've read about NuPhy keycaps, that they're gonna be compatible. Does anyone know some other options?

I just feel useless. I don't think there's any value in me. When the revolution comes that'll become even more apparent.

I'm not that romantic image of an autistic person the media paints. I'm not a walking-talking mental calculator who can recite π to a 1000 places. I'm not "walking Wikipedia" as a classmate called me.

I might have a way with learning unnecessary things, but y'all know what? The NTs don't care. A proper well-adjusted neurotypical adult is gonna win with me most of the time. Because while they can easily study the topic, I can't exactly easily study being "normal".

Autism is not that quirky thing like "Oh, I too might have autism because I like trains and hate people". It's an everyday struggle. A black pill I'm swallowing near every day, seeing how the deck was stacked against me from the start. Another job I feel stressed out at and on the verge of losing it. Sometimes I just can't. Sometimes I wonder whether it'd be easier for me if I just did not have a diagnosis and just thought there is something wrong with my behavior and my parents...